Today is the 26th of April 2009.... I dont know how he feels towards me during the movie session date, coz he dint tell me anything. I hope, he can tell me more.

I dont know y, i really miss him. I feel, we are made for each other.

Many people says, Eileen, u seemed to be alright le. U are very strong le. Thank you, for all your encouragement and support these few months.

I am alright, on the surface le. At least, everyone is happy to see the current me, when they meet me. More lively, more chatty...

But i dread loneliness. I m afriad of thinking back what happen in Feb 2009, the 28th of Feb 09... The pain juz came, so hard, so painful... Till today, when i see the little ones on the street, it will kinda makes me reflect...

My heart was crying at times, but, my eyes have to remain cheerful, my smile have to be pretty... Feels fake at times... Eileen is longer the way she is in the past...

I want it back!

I dreamt of him

I dreamt of alvin, like, again. Hai! Maybe i just loved him too much. Miss him so much!

I saw the ring which had our names. I wanted to put it on my finger, but, maybe it should go to my neck instead, the place near my heart.