The little space of myself

Struggling to stay firm.... Fighting my work war consistantly for 4 weeks alone. No weekend off, when i tot I will get my weekend off tomorrow, one of the officers decided to take her mc for 2 days. Of all days la... Maybe, it doesnt pays to be nice to people, just like my relationships...

After all the people took their weekend off, while i tot it is my turn, everything is like gone! I am so tired... Queues... I m learning to live with it, but, it is really so tired, till i just want to cry during work.

Hai.. Duno how long i can stand in. Headache, bad flu, super painful heart pain, backpain, legs pain. Very sianz... My head is throbbing. Tense shoulders.

Sometimes, how i wish he can help me to massage my shoulder, carry me to fly.... This action, nvr fails to make the down down emo me happy like a baby girl. I will just tell him, I want to fly fly... And there I go...

At night, when i see boy boy, i seem to be seeing him also. Dat was last time. Now, i dont wan to see it, just a hug everyday, becoz I want to keep my emotion up.

Come to think of it, I am indeed a stronger person le. Dint rant my problems n unhappines to people le. Even though stress and all is taking a toll on me, i will try my best, to carry on, to the best of my ability.

My future lies in my own hands... I want a degree, a good paying job (maybe when the economy is better), live my life happily. I dont need a man in my life, if it means hurt and pain to me.

Eileen will do a comeback soon, in 2 years time.

Past is past, while i do my waiting for him, life still goes on. I have confident, and is sure.