Saw Pamela tagging me a few pictures in Facebook. I saw the days, where we go NDP together... Me, Alvin, Pamela, Ken, WH n Tiancai... will be together, have fun, jokes, endure all hardships together. I really missed those times.
I missed them so much. Cries...
Those are the days, where i only have smiles... not like today, tears, and unhappy wrinkles, will shower on my face.
The days... I missed so much... I have this feeling, this day will be back again, soon.
I am sorry to alvin. Since the day we break, alot of things happened to you. You cant blame me, i hope. I already warned you.
After 9th dec... his grandpa went in hospital in Dec. His grandpa passed away in Jan. His dad was found to have an affair by the mum in February. Sorry. I can only say... Be brave bahx. I already help you undo some le, but i cant do all. Sorry.
I saw the pictures Pamela n Wh posted up on facebook for the countdown... thanks, i know u girls, maybe dun want me to be sad n unhappy, dint post the photos they took together.
Ya, i love him, so what? Whats wrong with love lehx? I dont care, i m going to love him, and only him, Alvin kok.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Work work work... then go home watch tv.... den sleep... this is the kind of life which I am having now.
Feeling unwell recently, bloated, some gas in my stomach, want to vomit... Think need to see doctor again...
I hope his leg is better... Yes, I still miss him alot alot. But, somethings, best left unsaid for now. I hope he will never know the results... becoz, i feel i shld face it myself, since it is my own problem.
Feeling unwell recently, bloated, some gas in my stomach, want to vomit... Think need to see doctor again...
I hope his leg is better... Yes, I still miss him alot alot. But, somethings, best left unsaid for now. I hope he will never know the results... becoz, i feel i shld face it myself, since it is my own problem.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Soon, it will be his 22nd Birthday le. Went to see him today. Supposed to meet at 12.30pm, but his dad brought him go tui na. He told me 1pm meet, but since he is with the dad, i dint hope for much... coz the dad's time is rubber band.
The baked rice I cooked for him, went cold liaoz. I met him around 3.30pm, at amk hub. He suggested to go Ichiban Sushi to eat. And so, we had our lunch plus dinner there. He tried my bake rice, he says it is nice, very delicious. Though not hot le, but it is very happy and rewarding to know he likes it.
Coz I bought his fave cake, and it is rather big, we went his hse to cut cake. His dad was there, and we cut a slice for him. Now he just went over his granny hse with the cake, to share the cake with her. He says "popo sure very happy to know the cake is from you de".
Thanks Vin, the 30 mins slp was very rewarding. Both of us agreed that it has been a long long time, since we really had such a nice and sweet sleeping time. Maybe it is the companion, the person beside, and the security the body feels bahx. :)
His feet seemed so swollen. I already reminded him, not to touch water. He told me, when ever he went po po hse, po po will nag at him, for leaving me. Argh... I miss po po... n gong gong.
Vin, I just want to let you know... No one will be good enough for me, except you.
The baked rice I cooked for him, went cold liaoz. I met him around 3.30pm, at amk hub. He suggested to go Ichiban Sushi to eat. And so, we had our lunch plus dinner there. He tried my bake rice, he says it is nice, very delicious. Though not hot le, but it is very happy and rewarding to know he likes it.
Coz I bought his fave cake, and it is rather big, we went his hse to cut cake. His dad was there, and we cut a slice for him. Now he just went over his granny hse with the cake, to share the cake with her. He says "popo sure very happy to know the cake is from you de".
Thanks Vin, the 30 mins slp was very rewarding. Both of us agreed that it has been a long long time, since we really had such a nice and sweet sleeping time. Maybe it is the companion, the person beside, and the security the body feels bahx. :)
His feet seemed so swollen. I already reminded him, not to touch water. He told me, when ever he went po po hse, po po will nag at him, for leaving me. Argh... I miss po po... n gong gong.
Vin, I just want to let you know... No one will be good enough for me, except you.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
His voice, never fails to melt my heart. Was on the phone with him for 20 mins just now, making me at the mood of flying over the clouds!!! Yippee! Super happy can!
As I have expected, I know what he wans for his birthday. Though I already told him what I will be getting for him, i can hear, he is looking forward to it.
Cheeky boy he is. After i told him how i matched make the guys with chio girls... He told me he wans woo me also, den i can intro chio gers for him. Aiyo, Alvin Kok, u are very notti lehx.
He just sprained his legs. I hope he is ok. I laughed at him, coz he is going to be a bai ka for his birthday. Hopefully, he be a good boy, go and see doctor or put ice to cool the pain.
Eileen is happier now! Lalalaz... Duno y, he always alters my mood, with just a snap in the finger.
As I have expected, I know what he wans for his birthday. Though I already told him what I will be getting for him, i can hear, he is looking forward to it.
Cheeky boy he is. After i told him how i matched make the guys with chio girls... He told me he wans woo me also, den i can intro chio gers for him. Aiyo, Alvin Kok, u are very notti lehx.
He just sprained his legs. I hope he is ok. I laughed at him, coz he is going to be a bai ka for his birthday. Hopefully, he be a good boy, go and see doctor or put ice to cool the pain.
Eileen is happier now! Lalalaz... Duno y, he always alters my mood, with just a snap in the finger.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
MC Ytd, due to my stupid diahorra. Ya, i know economy not good, shld not mc, but my stomach not well mah, how to work? Cannot concentrate sure $ wrong de, dat time i sure more stress liaoz.
Heez, I got my VS bag at $30, yippee, thanks to my dear sister. Yeah! Happy leh!
Went back work today, ate a sinful Zinger Meal for lunch. Boo! I need to exercise more, to shed off my fats.
I need to change job lehx... how huh? Maybe coz i still have time bahx..
His birthday on coming monday. Dont know if i can get to meet him, coz I hope to celebrate the day of his 22nd bdae with him... :( I pray hard...
Heez, I got my VS bag at $30, yippee, thanks to my dear sister. Yeah! Happy leh!
Went back work today, ate a sinful Zinger Meal for lunch. Boo! I need to exercise more, to shed off my fats.
I need to change job lehx... how huh? Maybe coz i still have time bahx..
His birthday on coming monday. Dont know if i can get to meet him, coz I hope to celebrate the day of his 22nd bdae with him... :( I pray hard...
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
I almost had a heart attack, but one of the surprised checks by my colleague!
I am happy today also... many regular customers commented dat i looks so much prettier with my contact lens, comparing to my specs (which I looked like a greek)!
Heez... Ya ya, all thanks to Alvin Kok huh, for spoiling my specs. Shld I replace it? Hmmz... Expensive lehx. Or maybe i shld head down to spectacles hut at amk tml, to repair it?
I m feeling better le, all my friends who were worried for me. Just that hoping my hormones wun fail me, period faster come, else i need take medicine again. :(
I am happy today also... many regular customers commented dat i looks so much prettier with my contact lens, comparing to my specs (which I looked like a greek)!
Heez... Ya ya, all thanks to Alvin Kok huh, for spoiling my specs. Shld I replace it? Hmmz... Expensive lehx. Or maybe i shld head down to spectacles hut at amk tml, to repair it?
I m feeling better le, all my friends who were worried for me. Just that hoping my hormones wun fail me, period faster come, else i need take medicine again. :(
Monday, February 16, 2009
Hai, I need to get my specs replaced, after it got spolit by Mr Kok on the 13th Feb... Haiyo... I m having probleming working, coz it keep sliding down my nose. Boo Hoo!
Got to spend $$ replacing. I love this specs, coz alot pple say it looks damn nice on me. It was bought 2 years ago, with Mr Kok's orange spec. His is also spoiling, coz of the scratches on the lenses.
Work is very sian... Help Benny did sth during work, a small favour, else got problem for the people. :(
Boring night again... What to give him as his bdae gift leh??? Though no longer tgt, but, friends mahx, plus i seriously, cant get over him now.
Got to spend $$ replacing. I love this specs, coz alot pple say it looks damn nice on me. It was bought 2 years ago, with Mr Kok's orange spec. His is also spoiling, coz of the scratches on the lenses.
Work is very sian... Help Benny did sth during work, a small favour, else got problem for the people. :(
Boring night again... What to give him as his bdae gift leh??? Though no longer tgt, but, friends mahx, plus i seriously, cant get over him now.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Eileen is super duper happy!!!
Ok I was a pig, sleeping till 11am, before i decided to wake up for the sunny sunday. Used computer, and stuck myself with the TV.
Went out at 4pm to meet Han Qin, for dinner, walk walk. I need a breather, coz coping myself at home, sooner or later i will go siao.
Before I go home, I went to the mall, and went into the Comic Connections, with the feeling dat, it should be there. I went in anxiously, asking the lady sales girl " Excuse me, do u have Rave comic, Chuan Yi version, 23rd book?"
She told me that she will help me check. When she climbed up the stairs to flip through the books in the hidden shelf, I was like "Have? Have? Have?" while i crossed my fingers, and praying hard. When she told me " You! (Have)" I was beaming with joy and tears in my eyes. I called him immediately, to reconfirm if it is the right book. So, the happy little girl, bought the book, thanking the sales girl many times. She was having the sign of relief on her face, maybe cause she saw my anxious face.
Heez. Now, Mr Alvin Kok should be the happiest guy, coz after months of efforts, the book was finally found. Whenever I go by any malls, I will pop into the comic shops, and ask if they have the book, coz it was out of stock le. Many disappointments, making my heart went UP and then DOWN. Now, i guess, it is the sense of happiness, i can sense from his voice, which makes me feels, it is worth it.
For him, I am willing to do anything. Just like in the past, present and the future. :)
I think Han Qin alrd know, no matter if he likes me or not, when he saw my face changed from the moment I saw the book in my hands, he told me "Now i know y u told all the guys, u cannot commit a relationship, it is because, you loved him too much". I can only be thankful to him, for accompanying me today.
I am so happy, so happy, so happy.... Lalalalalala....
His birthday coming... This is part of the present for him. The other part, waiting for him to tell me, else I will just get him a camera or a bag, i dun care what he going to comment le. Bleahx!
Ok I was a pig, sleeping till 11am, before i decided to wake up for the sunny sunday. Used computer, and stuck myself with the TV.
Went out at 4pm to meet Han Qin, for dinner, walk walk. I need a breather, coz coping myself at home, sooner or later i will go siao.
Before I go home, I went to the mall, and went into the Comic Connections, with the feeling dat, it should be there. I went in anxiously, asking the lady sales girl " Excuse me, do u have Rave comic, Chuan Yi version, 23rd book?"
She told me that she will help me check. When she climbed up the stairs to flip through the books in the hidden shelf, I was like "Have? Have? Have?" while i crossed my fingers, and praying hard. When she told me " You! (Have)" I was beaming with joy and tears in my eyes. I called him immediately, to reconfirm if it is the right book. So, the happy little girl, bought the book, thanking the sales girl many times. She was having the sign of relief on her face, maybe cause she saw my anxious face.
Heez. Now, Mr Alvin Kok should be the happiest guy, coz after months of efforts, the book was finally found. Whenever I go by any malls, I will pop into the comic shops, and ask if they have the book, coz it was out of stock le. Many disappointments, making my heart went UP and then DOWN. Now, i guess, it is the sense of happiness, i can sense from his voice, which makes me feels, it is worth it.
For him, I am willing to do anything. Just like in the past, present and the future. :)
I think Han Qin alrd know, no matter if he likes me or not, when he saw my face changed from the moment I saw the book in my hands, he told me "Now i know y u told all the guys, u cannot commit a relationship, it is because, you loved him too much". I can only be thankful to him, for accompanying me today.
I am so happy, so happy, so happy.... Lalalalalala....
His birthday coming... This is part of the present for him. The other part, waiting for him to tell me, else I will just get him a camera or a bag, i dun care what he going to comment le. Bleahx!
Saturday, February 14, 2009
The friend which I mentioned i went to find, during the eve of Valentine's Day, was Alvin.
I passed him the red packets, which I promised the god mums of his bro n his. Hug Ger Ger... I missed this darling so much. She is like the little baby of Alvin n I, hugging her feels so comfortable.
After dat, we went to amk hub for MOS burger, coz I haven had my dinner. Though I was having my gastric, I dint tell him, because, I hope he dont think i m a weak girl.
Headed to Po Po's hse, offer an incense to Gong Gong. When we are walking there, Alvin told me that Po Po came to know about our break up, she told him " Y dont want Eileen? You know Gong Gong dotes Eileen the most de!" Thanks po po, i know, because Gong Gong sees me more often den Catherine (Alvin's Bro GF), n he can see i treat Alvin very good.
When at Po Po Hse, can see she is happy to see me. When talking to her, whenever we came to the topic dat Alvin got listen to Gong Gong's words, Po Po sure say " U got listen to gong gong mah? If got, cannot dont want Eileen", argh so sweet can...
Popo asked me, if Alvin got get flowers for me, coz next day is Vday. I told Po Po, we tgt 3 years plus, dun need le la... Po Po says, ya, 3 years plus le, den Alvin cannot leave Eileen mahx.
SO touched to hear that. Massage for him, coz he seemed tired.
Vin, I know, I can see, u r very tired. Coz have to pei Po Po, ur family committment, ur gf, ur recurits. Jia you!
After popo hse, he drove his dad's car, went back his hse to get something. I know u r looking into my eyes, but i dont dare look into ur eyes, becoz I scared I will fall deeply in love with u again.
Something we should have have began with, I can sense that the word he said "he is weak", maybe because he knows his heart haven forget me yet.
Today is Valentine's Day. Thank you, for sending me home yesterday, for letting me see Po Po. Though I can only see you during the start of Vdae, I m contented. Thanks.
Muacks. Though I m not supposed to say it, i hope to tell u, i love u.
I passed him the red packets, which I promised the god mums of his bro n his. Hug Ger Ger... I missed this darling so much. She is like the little baby of Alvin n I, hugging her feels so comfortable.
After dat, we went to amk hub for MOS burger, coz I haven had my dinner. Though I was having my gastric, I dint tell him, because, I hope he dont think i m a weak girl.
Headed to Po Po's hse, offer an incense to Gong Gong. When we are walking there, Alvin told me that Po Po came to know about our break up, she told him " Y dont want Eileen? You know Gong Gong dotes Eileen the most de!" Thanks po po, i know, because Gong Gong sees me more often den Catherine (Alvin's Bro GF), n he can see i treat Alvin very good.
When at Po Po Hse, can see she is happy to see me. When talking to her, whenever we came to the topic dat Alvin got listen to Gong Gong's words, Po Po sure say " U got listen to gong gong mah? If got, cannot dont want Eileen", argh so sweet can...
Popo asked me, if Alvin got get flowers for me, coz next day is Vday. I told Po Po, we tgt 3 years plus, dun need le la... Po Po says, ya, 3 years plus le, den Alvin cannot leave Eileen mahx.
SO touched to hear that. Massage for him, coz he seemed tired.
Vin, I know, I can see, u r very tired. Coz have to pei Po Po, ur family committment, ur gf, ur recurits. Jia you!
After popo hse, he drove his dad's car, went back his hse to get something. I know u r looking into my eyes, but i dont dare look into ur eyes, becoz I scared I will fall deeply in love with u again.
Something we should have have began with, I can sense that the word he said "he is weak", maybe because he knows his heart haven forget me yet.
Today is Valentine's Day. Thank you, for sending me home yesterday, for letting me see Po Po. Though I can only see you during the start of Vdae, I m contented. Thanks.
Muacks. Though I m not supposed to say it, i hope to tell u, i love u.
Happy Valentine's Day to everyone! Especially to him!
Apologise to my ladies, for not being able to join them for the dinner at Ichiban Sushi, because I ended my work later den usual. By the time u gers said u r ready to leave, I was just reaching AMK.
I went to meet a friend instead. Reached home after 12 midnight.
Just went out for my facial and pedicure. No man to pamper me nvm, Eileen can do the same to herself... :) Cheers!
I took my off day today, actually wanted to spend the vday with him, when i planned this day in nov 2008. Its ok, so long as he is a happy boy now. I just misses him alot.
Apologise to my ladies, for not being able to join them for the dinner at Ichiban Sushi, because I ended my work later den usual. By the time u gers said u r ready to leave, I was just reaching AMK.
I went to meet a friend instead. Reached home after 12 midnight.
Just went out for my facial and pedicure. No man to pamper me nvm, Eileen can do the same to herself... :) Cheers!
I took my off day today, actually wanted to spend the vday with him, when i planned this day in nov 2008. Its ok, so long as he is a happy boy now. I just misses him alot.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Another report today... we are juz so sway. :(
The brothers damn cute can... The way they handle things.
Yippy, I m now 156cm, taller by 2 cm, and weighing... ahem, 3 kg lesser since dec 2008. Clap Clap!
I shld continue this... Yippy yaya yippy yippy ya...
Buying pretty clothese here n there...
Meeting my darlings tml, for kbox. The girls have been missing out alot of fun between ourselves. BooHoo!
Oh yes, my 2 uncles, whose ages add up to over 100 years old, fighted today. Siao! Simply crazy!
My left hand now got an ugly blue black, from the blood test which i took. Pain n unsightly :( Lucky this Vdae no date, else sure make the date run off.
Just realise, heels has became part of me, i walk better in heels, den without heels. Showing more confidence, plus it makes my figure better... cool!
Maybe, a major impact in my life, changed me from head to toe. I may not be the stupid girl like the past, but my heart still belongs to him.
The brothers damn cute can... The way they handle things.
Yippy, I m now 156cm, taller by 2 cm, and weighing... ahem, 3 kg lesser since dec 2008. Clap Clap!
I shld continue this... Yippy yaya yippy yippy ya...
Buying pretty clothese here n there...
Meeting my darlings tml, for kbox. The girls have been missing out alot of fun between ourselves. BooHoo!
Oh yes, my 2 uncles, whose ages add up to over 100 years old, fighted today. Siao! Simply crazy!
My left hand now got an ugly blue black, from the blood test which i took. Pain n unsightly :( Lucky this Vdae no date, else sure make the date run off.
Just realise, heels has became part of me, i walk better in heels, den without heels. Showing more confidence, plus it makes my figure better... cool!
Maybe, a major impact in my life, changed me from head to toe. I may not be the stupid girl like the past, but my heart still belongs to him.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Cramps... Argh! Very sian...
Training these two days, very enriching. I m glad i got to attend the trainings, something cool.
I m not going to the doctor, i think i m ok la. Coz i m very busy. Ya, dun tell me, how busy also cannot neglect my health. I know it myself.
Back to office tml. :( Boo hoo...
Throughout training, was smsing james n nick. Haiyo, they r like babies, fighting over little things, when one is 23 yr old, the other 28 yr old. Big children sia. Headache, duno how to settle the issue, coz i dun wan to hurt anyone, not even myself.
Training these two days, very enriching. I m glad i got to attend the trainings, something cool.
I m not going to the doctor, i think i m ok la. Coz i m very busy. Ya, dun tell me, how busy also cannot neglect my health. I know it myself.
Back to office tml. :( Boo hoo...
Throughout training, was smsing james n nick. Haiyo, they r like babies, fighting over little things, when one is 23 yr old, the other 28 yr old. Big children sia. Headache, duno how to settle the issue, coz i dun wan to hurt anyone, not even myself.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Slping at an unearthly hour of 12 midnight, and waking at 6.30am today, i was like a walking zombie when i go tiong bahru. Since I was supposed to fast for 8 hrs, since i got medical checkup. So without breakfast, i had to control my gastric pain, and went for my 3 hours medical.
The nurse says, my vein very small, so advised me against going for blood donation "your vein is smaller den the needle for blood donation" Lol... ok lor. Due to this reason, blood test resulted me in having a big big blueblack now. :(
My ECG dint pass though. I think the doctors suspected sth, coz no one, except me, have to see the doctor, and they asked me funny qns.
Whatever. My health has always been poor. Friends n relative wont know, because i did not want anyone to know.
If anything wans to happen to them, i rather it will falls on me instead, coz i want him to be a happy boy.
While going home, went passed henderson road. It reminds me of the 6 mths attachment he gone thru again. Those times were tough, but sweet.
I almost fainted, coz no food taken, gastric and the blood test. But i told myself to walk on, coz if i dont make it, no one i can contact to come n help me bahx. Ya lor, and so, i dragged myself home, and have my first meal after 16 hours.
Damn hungry... N the gastric was painful... Haiz...
Whatever... I have given up on my health. I had been very health n weight conscious, for myself, but, there is nth i can do. I have to jiayou! Jia you!
*It is still painful, to think of u. To know, the place which i used to be in ur heart, was given to someone else. But, I have to surppress my feelings, i dont know how long i can held on...
Maybe this is one of the reason to my heart pain which i had been having recently.
The nurse says, my vein very small, so advised me against going for blood donation "your vein is smaller den the needle for blood donation" Lol... ok lor. Due to this reason, blood test resulted me in having a big big blueblack now. :(
My ECG dint pass though. I think the doctors suspected sth, coz no one, except me, have to see the doctor, and they asked me funny qns.
Whatever. My health has always been poor. Friends n relative wont know, because i did not want anyone to know.
If anything wans to happen to them, i rather it will falls on me instead, coz i want him to be a happy boy.
While going home, went passed henderson road. It reminds me of the 6 mths attachment he gone thru again. Those times were tough, but sweet.
I almost fainted, coz no food taken, gastric and the blood test. But i told myself to walk on, coz if i dont make it, no one i can contact to come n help me bahx. Ya lor, and so, i dragged myself home, and have my first meal after 16 hours.
Damn hungry... N the gastric was painful... Haiz...
Whatever... I have given up on my health. I had been very health n weight conscious, for myself, but, there is nth i can do. I have to jiayou! Jia you!
*It is still painful, to think of u. To know, the place which i used to be in ur heart, was given to someone else. But, I have to surppress my feelings, i dont know how long i can held on...
Maybe this is one of the reason to my heart pain which i had been having recently.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Elated now! I just love my new LG Ice Cream Phone. Pink colour, totally adores it, coz it is very sweet n sexy.
After going to Far East Plaza to buy my phone, I was going hang out at Orchard area. Wanted to buy my magazine, i remember last time, he always tell me off for bringing magazines when i go out. Anyway, i dint buy, because I was thinking, i can save the $$$ for more usage.
My Samsung phone keeps hanging, though i have replaced my regular phone to LG, i m still going to get another new line, to let the Samsung phone keeps serving me, because when I m down, the past smses he sent me, keeps me going on, bring me the smiles. I need the photos we took together, to keep me happy everyday.
The two guys ar... Dont keep giving me problems lehx. Both of u r buddies, no pt quarrelling over me now, coz i m really really really not interested in having any relationships are whatsoever now. Be my friend now, and who knows someday, i can fall in love with u also.
But please please, dont expect me to love anyone now la. I very scared of getting hurt again lehx. Haiyo.
After going to Far East Plaza to buy my phone, I was going hang out at Orchard area. Wanted to buy my magazine, i remember last time, he always tell me off for bringing magazines when i go out. Anyway, i dint buy, because I was thinking, i can save the $$$ for more usage.
My Samsung phone keeps hanging, though i have replaced my regular phone to LG, i m still going to get another new line, to let the Samsung phone keeps serving me, because when I m down, the past smses he sent me, keeps me going on, bring me the smiles. I need the photos we took together, to keep me happy everyday.
The two guys ar... Dont keep giving me problems lehx. Both of u r buddies, no pt quarrelling over me now, coz i m really really really not interested in having any relationships are whatsoever now. Be my friend now, and who knows someday, i can fall in love with u also.
But please please, dont expect me to love anyone now la. I very scared of getting hurt again lehx. Haiyo.
Friday, February 6, 2009
I feel so dejected. With customers yelling n scolding me, wanting me to reveal things i cannot reveal, blaming me for causing them inconvenices...
I m not in the fault. But everything is my fault. I feel so much to cry. But i have to be strong, smile at the customer, and pretend nth happened.
I wan to cry. But this is my work. :( I have to accept it bahx. Another 1/2 day tml, den i will be off on mon to wednesday.
I dont know y i take off day on 14th February.... It was planned in nov 08, in my mind to spent it with him. Now, i guess, its going to be a lonely one. Maybe i shld stay at home, so that i dun see lovely dovery couples on the streets, with flowers... which will make me teared.
Having started my new savings plan, a must to pay every month, i hope to reach my goal soon. I have changed to be more independent, thinking for my future, since there is no one i can rely on bahx.
Thanks to James, for telling me, it is better to walk together in darkness with the person he likes, den to walk alone in light.
But i m sorry, i dont know, when i can forget him, or to put down all these. Please move on without me, because, i may not want to have a relationship in the near future, till someone, the right person, can find the key to my closed heart again.
I m not in the fault. But everything is my fault. I feel so much to cry. But i have to be strong, smile at the customer, and pretend nth happened.
I wan to cry. But this is my work. :( I have to accept it bahx. Another 1/2 day tml, den i will be off on mon to wednesday.
I dont know y i take off day on 14th February.... It was planned in nov 08, in my mind to spent it with him. Now, i guess, its going to be a lonely one. Maybe i shld stay at home, so that i dun see lovely dovery couples on the streets, with flowers... which will make me teared.
Having started my new savings plan, a must to pay every month, i hope to reach my goal soon. I have changed to be more independent, thinking for my future, since there is no one i can rely on bahx.
Thanks to James, for telling me, it is better to walk together in darkness with the person he likes, den to walk alone in light.
But i m sorry, i dont know, when i can forget him, or to put down all these. Please move on without me, because, i may not want to have a relationship in the near future, till someone, the right person, can find the key to my closed heart again.
曾经，站在舞台上唱歌，是我们一起追逐的未来； 现在，一个人的我，努力学习不再依赖你的肩膀，提醒自己要好好的去生活，当剪刀划过我的长发，散落一地的不是泪，而是相恋六年的时光，我微笑望着天空，才发现，在想念和遗忘之间，原来爱情和头发一样，都可以剪短。 ——潘嘉丽 (quoted from www.xin.sg)
Maybe I should learn from her, to be brave and move on. Maybe, i regretted too many things... Maybe... Maybe....
Maybe I should learn from her, to be brave and move on. Maybe, i regretted too many things... Maybe... Maybe....
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Tell me, how come i still cannot let go? I feel very pressured, coz i have to hid my feelings for him, so that he can be with the girl he likes n loves. I feel very unhappy, because, why must it be her? The girl, a very very nice girl. When i saw her last time, i knew it. But, i did not stop everything. Maybe, its fated dat way.
I dont know what to do. Vdae coming... I received an invite to Zouk, on Vdae, FOC, but must go with lover n in couple clothes. Haiz.. No date this year. Sianz.
Maybe this kind of vdae, will continues forever, unless, i really meet someone way better den him, dotes me more den he does... Or else, I rather remain single. Coz i promised him, to find someone better den him, provided if i can, else, he got to get one for me.
At times, when i need people to encourage me, i hope it is him. But he will not pick up my calls or sms de, so no point. When i feel lost, I hope he can be my compass, to guide me the right path. But I think, he is so occupied.
Sometimes, I know will happen between the two of them. But i cant tell them. I just hope, they can be happy...
I miss him, n i loves him still. Can i just get into an accident, n forget everything?
I dont know what to do. Vdae coming... I received an invite to Zouk, on Vdae, FOC, but must go with lover n in couple clothes. Haiz.. No date this year. Sianz.
Maybe this kind of vdae, will continues forever, unless, i really meet someone way better den him, dotes me more den he does... Or else, I rather remain single. Coz i promised him, to find someone better den him, provided if i can, else, he got to get one for me.
At times, when i need people to encourage me, i hope it is him. But he will not pick up my calls or sms de, so no point. When i feel lost, I hope he can be my compass, to guide me the right path. But I think, he is so occupied.
Sometimes, I know will happen between the two of them. But i cant tell them. I just hope, they can be happy...
I miss him, n i loves him still. Can i just get into an accident, n forget everything?
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