The little space of myself

Slping at an unearthly hour of 12 midnight, and waking at 6.30am today, i was like a walking zombie when i go tiong bahru. Since I was supposed to fast for 8 hrs, since i got medical checkup. So without breakfast, i had to control my gastric pain, and went for my 3 hours medical.

The nurse says, my vein very small, so advised me against going for blood donation "your vein is smaller den the needle for blood donation" Lol... ok lor. Due to this reason, blood test resulted me in having a big big blueblack now. :(

My ECG dint pass though. I think the doctors suspected sth, coz no one, except me, have to see the doctor, and they asked me funny qns.

Whatever. My health has always been poor. Friends n relative wont know, because i did not want anyone to know.

If anything wans to happen to them, i rather it will falls on me instead, coz i want him to be a happy boy.

While going home, went passed henderson road. It reminds me of the 6 mths attachment he gone thru again. Those times were tough, but sweet.

I almost fainted, coz no food taken, gastric and the blood test. But i told myself to walk on, coz if i dont make it, no one i can contact to come n help me bahx. Ya lor, and so, i dragged myself home, and have my first meal after 16 hours.

Damn hungry... N the gastric was painful... Haiz...

Whatever... I have given up on my health. I had been very health n weight conscious, for myself, but, there is nth i can do. I have to jiayou! Jia you!

*It is still painful, to think of u. To know, the place which i used to be in ur heart, was given to someone else. But, I have to surppress my feelings, i dont know how long i can held on...

Maybe this is one of the reason to my heart pain which i had been having recently.