The little space of myself

Tell me, how come i still cannot let go? I feel very pressured, coz i have to hid my feelings for him, so that he can be with the girl he likes n loves. I feel very unhappy, because, why must it be her? The girl, a very very nice girl. When i saw her last time, i knew it. But, i did not stop everything. Maybe, its fated dat way.

I dont know what to do. Vdae coming... I received an invite to Zouk, on Vdae, FOC, but must go with lover n in couple clothes. Haiz.. No date this year. Sianz.

Maybe this kind of vdae, will continues forever, unless, i really meet someone way better den him, dotes me more den he does... Or else, I rather remain single. Coz i promised him, to find someone better den him, provided if i can, else, he got to get one for me.

At times, when i need people to encourage me, i hope it is him. But he will not pick up my calls or sms de, so no point. When i feel lost, I hope he can be my compass, to guide me the right path. But I think, he is so occupied.

Sometimes, I know will happen between the two of them. But i cant tell them. I just hope, they can be happy...

I miss him, n i loves him still. Can i just get into an accident, n forget everything?