The little space of myself

I feel so dejected. With customers yelling n scolding me, wanting me to reveal things i cannot reveal, blaming me for causing them inconvenices...

I m not in the fault. But everything is my fault. I feel so much to cry. But i have to be strong, smile at the customer, and pretend nth happened.

I wan to cry. But this is my work. :( I have to accept it bahx. Another 1/2 day tml, den i will be off on mon to wednesday.

I dont know y i take off day on 14th February.... It was planned in nov 08, in my mind to spent it with him. Now, i guess, its going to be a lonely one. Maybe i shld stay at home, so that i dun see lovely dovery couples on the streets, with flowers... which will make me teared.

Having started my new savings plan, a must to pay every month, i hope to reach my goal soon. I have changed to be more independent, thinking for my future, since there is no one i can rely on bahx.

Thanks to James, for telling me, it is better to walk together in darkness with the person he likes, den to walk alone in light.

But i m sorry, i dont know, when i can forget him, or to put down all these. Please move on without me, because, i may not want to have a relationship in the near future, till someone, the right person, can find the key to my closed heart again.